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Thursday, August 12, 2010

Fade to Black

I had some time today to reflect on things.. I took 15 minutes of solice and one with nature.



In that time, I was thinking about where I am now.. And where to go.. I also thought about closing down this alter ego but in the end decided to let things stay as a status quo..



Why? You know I dont think I could answer that. There are a couple "good friends" on here that I dont want to be able to chat with..



But I also was thinking about how music has been a part of my life..



One of my favorite stations on satellite radio is "the big 80's" as that is when I was growing up.



If I hear Phil Collins "In the air tonight" I remember getting ready for my 9th grade prom.



"Cant fight this feeling" I remember the curly headed girl that I had the biggest crush on, but lost after 1 date...



"Love Bites" Ironic.. But it's a memory.. Never forget your first!



"Groovy kind of love" Basic Training in the army, working KP duty and just hearing the song and realizing that it was Phil Collins and it was the first taste of outside influence in like months!



And the list goes on.. But there is one song that to this day makes me really reflect. Not in exactly a good way.. As it leads me to hink of some things that i did that werent the most pleasant.. But without them, I wouldnt be where I am now...



There is one song that reminds me not only of my dark moments, but also the time when I was able to start over.. I was married before and we were both very young.. things happened and it was over. She started playing games with me and my heart. I took some things badly and kept trying.. It took me a while to realize it was over. When I did, I had been with some buddies and heard a song on the radio. It was by Metallica and the words just fit into my situation.. But, if you look at them, it can have a different meaning. When the word talk about Life is over, I knew that part of my life was over. I was starting new... The ex didnt see it that way.. I still get a small smile thinking about that! LOL



I got in my car in Ft Lewis Washington and started driving across country. My new life had started..



"Fade to Black"



Life it seems will fade away

Drifting further everyday

Getting lost within myself

Nothing Matters no one else

I have lost the will to live simply nothing more to give

There is nothing more for me

Need the end to set me free



Things not what they used to be, Missing one inside of me

Deadly loss this cant be real

Cannot stand this hell I feel

Emptiness is filling m to the point of agony

Growing darkness taking dawn

I was me but now, hes gone



No one but me can save myself, but its too late

Now I cant think, think why i should even try



Yesterday seems as though it never existed

Death greets me warm, now I will just say Goobye

Goodbye



And so that would be the end of this note.. But no.. Facebook had to drag it up today...



Why, did they need me to have the laugh? Did they need me to find the Ipod toplay the song?



What happened you ask? You know that little box on the side of your homepage that recommends friends...



Today, it recommended that I add my Ex as a friend!! LOL.. Well if she was my friend, she wouldnt be my ex!! LOL



That was the reason I went for the walk and music was stuck in my head..



I dont know why I rambled.. But thanks!!

Friday, August 6, 2010

10 Minutes

This is a follow up to a walk ing the woods.

There has been some time between the last one. Most of it my fault.

We finally found time that would work, and the arrangements were made. On my way there, she asked about outfit. I told her a skirt or a dress. She didnt respond, so I figured this would not be a problem. When she walked out of the house, I saw that she was wearing a pair of jean shorts. I waited till she got in the car, and than we drove off. As we were driving, we discussed the reason she was wearing shorts. I do not think she expected the harshness in my voice..

She responded by saying that she didnt have the pair of panties that she wanted to wear with a dress. I asked her if she had on a pair of panties right now, she said yes. It was about this time that we pulled into the park. I made her pull her shorts down and show me she was wearing a pair of panties. I eplained to her that i was not pleased and that we were going back to her house and she was to go and put on the dress. You could see it in her eyes, she was dissappointed in her failure to please me.

The conversation on the way back was mostly me, telling her that it was basically defiance that led her to believe that she could not listen to my order about her outfit. That she felt that she would be able to walk out of the house, I wouldnt say a word and it would be fine. She got out of the car and went into the house to change.

When she came back out, properly attired, she got back into the car. I let her know I was pleased with her outfit. I than had her look at the clock and tell me what time it was. It was 10 minutes after the hour. So I reminded her that her defiance had caused up to start 10 minutes late. This would come into play multiple times in the next couple of hours. as we drove off, she was ordered to lower her panties and have them be right around her knees. They stayed like this until we arrived at the park.

Upon arrival at the park, there was a gentlman sitting in a truck in the parking lot, but not that many other people around. I told her to get out, and we started our walk. The walk was similar tot he toher one, as it is a quiet part of the park. We walked up to the first 2 buildings, and I had her check the door to the restroom. The door was unlocked, so I made her go in. It was the mens restroom, and I could see the nervousness in her eyes. She was made to go and face the wall, and I gave her the first of the many spanks that were to follow. Each time we did spanks, they were in successions of 10. So she got 10 over the skirt, 10 pantied and 10 bare. We than left the bathroom and walked around the back of another building. She than was told to face the wall and started with her 2 minute increments for "corner time". I used the stop watch to keep accurate count. With about 30 seconds left, she once again recieved her 10 spankings increments. The echo, so close to the buildings was very hot!

After her time was up, we walked towards the football field. I saw a set of bleachers prior to entering the field, so we walked over to them. Once again she got her increments of 10 spanks. Her heart started racing, as we were out in the wide open view of the park. Granted, it is a secluded part, but not hidden like behind the building. She was very hesistant, but wanted to follow orders. After the spanks, I reached down a little further and could feel her excitement. I pointed this out to her, and she responded that yes, she definately was excited.

We than started walking across the field. I stopped her at the middle of the field and once again gave her her 30 strokes. Her gasp when her ass was bared in the middle of the football field. We than walked over to the shack where most of the action took place last time. She was immediately told to get up to the wall, where she started the next 2 minutes of "corner time". There was a loud gasp, when she heard me take off my belt. As she knew what was coming. Towards the end of the 2 minutes, I gave her her 30 strokes, but this time with the belt. We than went up the stirs of the building and she recieved 30 more strokes. I than had her remove her panties completely, and she was told that they would be in her hand until I dropped her off at her house. She gasped, knowing we were going to go and eat after the session.

I forgot to add that I recieved a phone call during her spanings at the building. I was speaking on the phone with one hand and spanking her with the other, I heard her giggle at this.

We than walked back onto the field, and over to the goal post. Her dress was raised, and she had to do another 2 minutes at the goal post... This drove her nuts.. Being in the middle of the field... But she took it, along with the belt like a trooper.

We walked back to the buildings, and she had to take another 2 minutes along with more spanks. It was very hot out so I decided to forgo the last 2 minutes of corner time. We walked to the picnic table that was so close to the parking lot and she took her last 30 strokes.

All the while during this session, I would ask her why she was being spanked and she had to repeat to me why...

We walked back to the car, and she looked so cute with her panties in her hand.

When we left the park, I took her panties and put them up on the dash near the gps for all to see.

We went to Pizza Hut in Bowieand sat in a booth. I made her place her panties on the seat between us. It was funny, beacuse when the food got there, I old her that we should go wash up. She got up out of the booth and almost left them sitting on the booth.

When we walked to the restroom, I almost pulled her in with me, but decided against it at the last second.

We left the restaurant and I dropped her off at her house. The drive from the restaurant to her house was fun, as for some reason she couldnt keep still, or keep her breath! LOL

I did take a couple of photos during this, which added to her excitement. They didnt really show the redness to her ass, and I blame that on the bad quality of a cell phone camera...

She was given a task to do when she got home, I havent heard the results of the task as of yet...